Hey peeps..

I guess many things in life, everyone has to just get up and learn from their mistakes... i confess that i really did some nasty thing recently and i felt childish and horrible.. I guess i was so mad at someone that i just uttered out rubbish... yikess.. i know, serious consequences will follow after that.

I feel really apologetic about this whole issue... hmmm.. i totally freaked out when everything sanked in and i didn't sleep till 3... hmmm... stupid me.. i seek the Lord's forgivenss and promise never to do such a thing again.. As a christian, it is important to led a different life from others.. no pressure but at least, make people see that there is something different.. but after that incident, i am disappointed in myself.. i have like no freaking idea.. why I DID THAT??!!!


Now, about my relationship... well, things are indeed changing already and i am well trying to cope with everything.. Things have finally come to and end.. not knowing whether it is good or bad as i have given up trying.. everyone is tired, i am causing unecessary stress so yea... I am letting things go right now & occupying myself.. it's been a long long ride and finally i am putting down everything..

I guess when both parties have a breakthrough.. things are different.. i don't know whether at the end of the day, it will be good but i am trusting the Lord.. i am just not thinking about this whole OFC situation so that is why, i have nothing to say..

Right now, is I am going to help the people around me who are in relationship problems.. is really hard on individuals as i have experienced it before, and it's NASTY... it's really hard to comprehen but it's true.. I guess being able to love & having someone to love you back is a very wonderful thing.. but it's not my main priority right now..

Don't worry, you may think i am insane cause i am so not that kind of person that would say such things but it's true.. My "0" are around the corner so i can't risk anything to happen...

But that's something that i am having probs with right now.. so i am just gonna wait and see.. hmmm.. but i can sense something STRONG (P.S NOT GOOD!!!), but there is something in me who doesn't want to bring it any further cause it's not the right time.. but it's hard to control ones feelings sometimes, lots of things to reconsider..

Bye..