Sighs... today has been a really bad bad day for me...

I quarrelled with my best friend??!!!! First time so badly... she changed into someone i totally don't even remember anymore.... she actually scolded me like "What the Fuck is wrong with you?!" i was like wth?! why do you expect everyone to do what you say or to qian jiu ni???!!!

I am not your dog ok?? doesn't mean you are stress you vent your anger on other people... i have my own probs too you know... i am already trying so hard to not scold you cause you seriously have an attitude prob but you scolded me.... ):

I am really heartbroken that i am losing my best friend.... i am already so frustrated with my life and now you made me quarrel with you? when can you realise that sometimes you are really in the wrong? do you have to wait until things go to a point of no return...? you've change.... ): you are no longer the person i once knew....

i cried twice today... i am really very upset... i didn't even have appetite to eat anything.... i felt sick... i am really trying very hard to control myself cause i know its not worth quarrelling with you but....

you say i don't tell you my probs... and have you ever asked yourself why??? No doubt you are my best friend but sometimes it doesn't mean i have to tell you everything.... i mean i am already not emotinally stable and i really need your support but i don't know.. i don't wanna blame anybody....

you used to give me space and now you just scold me....? a friend first time told me to fuck off... right.... you've really change.... ): why..? then you can only ask why kai wen never tell me stuff anymore.... is it my fault or you really need to rethink your behaviour.... i am really not scolding you or anything.. but i can't find anymore ways to tell you that.... i can be very blunt but i don't want cause you are my friend..

Pls understand... i already am upset enough....